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Monday, 17 March 2008

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    Mothers, Sisters, Daughters & Wives
    By Voxtrot
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    Return from Paradise

              I'm back from Spring Break and I am not amused about being back in Kentucky. I have only confirmed my suspicions that I would love Guilford. I can tell it is amazing, and that it's a much better environment for me to be in. I seriously do not like it here. I'm only now realizing that I have the power to change my situation completely. I have the power to actually change my life. And the time is now. I talked it over with Mother, and she actually supports me. I don't know if my dad will or not. I think he would, except for the financial part. I don't really expect him to contribute much. And I'm positive he would never visit. Not even to move me in or out. But that's alright with me if I don't see him for nine months. No, the only thing I'm really worried about is Craig. He nearly had a mental breakdown when I told him how badly I want to go to Guilford. He's worried that I'll never see him or talk to him. I think that in any other situation, with any other boy or at a different time in the relationship, I would just say, forget it, catch you later. But this is different. I really love Craig. And by the time I would go to college next fall, we will have been dating for over a year. At this age, that's getting a bit serious and it's not something I want to throw away. He said he would support me wherever I decide to go, but that he doesn't have to like it. I understand, but at the same time I almost want him to fake it for me. I want to be told that everything will be okay between us. Deep down, I am terrified.

Sunday, 09 March 2008

  • Praise Allah!

                I have officially died and gone to heaven. I'm in Florida with Kelsey, Jack, Kurt, and Alex and we are five of the happiest college kids to have ever lived. We're in a beautiful condo, on a beautiful beach, hundreds of miles away from parental supervision, and with more free, quality alcohol than I have ever seen. We spent the day alternating between the pool, the hot tub, and the ocean. This is the life. I don't ever want to leave. This place makes me infinitely happy, not to mention the amazing people I'm with. Seriously, Kelsey picked some good ones. They're hippies and I love them to death already.
                 On a slightly different note, I smoked weed for the first time in my life last night (after I was sufficiently drunk) and it was an interesting experience. It really didn't change me as much as I thought it might. It just made me really happy and relaxed. And it made me drink syrup "to sooth my lava throat." The lava being from inhaling burning ashes. But I learned how to work a lighter and a bowl and I didn't have a coughing fit. I'm rather proud of myself for that. I'm glad I did it with Kelsey and company because I trust them to take care of me and also to not judge me for being sheltered. More later, I have more awesome things to do than write about all the cool things I'm doing.

    K

Tuesday, 04 March 2008

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    We Are Not Alone
    By Breaking Benjamin
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    College: I'd Rather Be Retired Now...

              My apologies in advance, this is going to be rather angsty. My life is all out of order. I screwed up by taking calculus last semester. My grade in that one class ruined my GPA, and as it turns out, possibly my life as I know it. Now, I know that's an exaggeration, but there is some truth to it. I have to pull my GPA up to a 3.3 by the end of this semester. If I fail to do so, I lose my academic scholarship and my instate tuition. Then it's back to Ohio for Miss Kasia. I was really starting to get my hopes up about next year here. I don't know how to break it to Erin and Michelle that my parents refuse to cosign the lease. I'm really worried about them not being able to find a third and fourth roommate. Also, I'm really sad about not living with them in that house. My mom says I'm not mature enough to handle living in a house until my junior year. Bull.
              So now I need to start seriously looking for another college. Ohio public universities include UC, OSU, BGSU, OU, UT, ONU, Kent State, and Wright State. I really want a small school. UK has somewhere around 30,000 students. I am completely lost here, and I hate it. I feel like I would be able to make more friends at a much smaller school. Also, I don't want to go up north. I found out that I hate the cold and I really think I get seasonally depressed. So I need somewhere sunny, or at least not arctic. I have some serious shopping to do if I'm going to find an out of state school with low tuition, small student body, and decent weather. I can't even explain how jealous I am of everyone who can afford to go wherever they want, and those who know what they want to do with their lives. I am obviously neither of those.
              I feel like the only constants I have in my life are Kelsey and Craig. Which is why I'm terrified that Craig will be accepted for the internship in Buffalo and not the one in Cincinnati. It's not that I'm dependent on him, but in all likelihood, I would be very unhappy surviving a whole summer without him. I have to find a job I like this summer too. I'm looking at jobs at Bethesda North Hospital, Borders, any bead store, or ideally, any stable or boarding farm. I should invest in some classifieds. Basically, I can't wait to go to Florida and forget the world.
              Mood of the day: "Forget it, there's nothing left to lose but my mind and all the things I wanted."

    Kasia

Monday, 03 March 2008

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    Indian Summer
    By Carbon Leaf
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    A Much-Needed Update

    Hello chums,
              It's been quite a while (over a year now) since I wrote last. Honestly, with the advent of myspace and facebook, I doubt anyone will read this so really it will mostly be for my own benefit or amusement. I have updated the layout of my page and I like it a lot. Two things led to the rediscovery of my xanga: Kelsey reminding me that it existed, and the overwhelming desire to not study biology. Alright so a quick summary of my love life thus far: Robby ended (and moved to Lexington, which is where I am...coincidence), Greg began sweetly and ended bitterly (I've quite lost track of his whereabouts), Patrick probably should have never occurred and frankly I'm trying to pretend that he didn't (I think he may be in Egypt now actually...), and then in July 2007 the Craig chapter of my life began (it's been seven lovely months).
                So now it is 2008 and I am 19 years old, living in Lexington, finishing up my freshman year at UK, unemployed, and counting the minutes until spring break. The plan for SB '08 is as follows: drive to Cincinnati, drive to Guilford with Kelsey's padre, party hardy at Guilford, drive to Palm Coast with Jack, Kurt, and Alex, spend a week on the beach snoozing and boozing, back to Guilford, back to Cincinnati, then back to the misery that is the academic life. Speaking of academics...college has been...interesting.
              Let's start with the horseback riding adventures. I joined the UK Equestrian Team and met four of the loves of my lives, Erin Krampe, Emily Sward, Michelle Sanseverino, and Heather Colabella. We rode together and I became very close with a water buffalo named Cash. Ended up that the UKET was a clicky bunch of bitches attempting to rob us, so we quit! Now we're riding at Punchestown Stables and everything is a million times better. The lessons are smaller and longer, I'm actually learning the correct way to jump, and the stable is amazing. My only complaint is that there is only an outdoor arena, and lessons are canceled for weather a lot. Winter and spring lessons were probably not the best idea. The horse I'm riding now is named Jedi and he is the perfect school horse, and he's adorable. This week, however, he refused a jump, I took the jump without him, landed on a large metal rod and broke my bum. And it tore my pants. LAME. But now I know better and Sarah made me end on a good note jumping-wise. Hmm, what else?
              My mother scammed my way into getting a handicap parking pass for school. Exciting! I almost feel bad. But not really after I got a ticket for NO REASON. I hope the appeal goes through on that and I get my money back...transportation bastards. Hmm, plans for next year include living in a little pink house near campus. It has a fenced yard and a patio! It will definitely be me, Erin, and Michelle but we're looking for a fourth roommate since Emily bailed out. And we're gonna get a doggie!!! I'm really excited to be sipping margaritas on our patio next August. I need to look into changing my major because I'm really not so sure about this whole pharmacy thing....animal science or pre-vet even sound much better.
              On a side note, Craig turned 21 in February, Kelsey is turning 19 and I get to see her on her birthday!!! Her presents are amazing. Also, only half a year until I turn 20. Wow, that's kinda scary. I have no idea how I got to be so old...but I'm not really complaining. Well, I think it's time to make some Easy Mac and finish studying for my blodge midterm exam. Wish me luck!

    -Kasia

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    • Name: Kasia
    • Country: United States
    • State: Ohio
    • Metro: Cincinnati
    • Birthday: 9/26/1988
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 10/10/2004

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