I'm back from Spring Break and I am not amused about being back in Kentucky. I have only confirmed my suspicions that I would love Guilford. I can tell it is amazing, and that it's a much better environment for me to be in. I seriously do not like it here. I'm only now realizing that I have the power to change my situation completely. I have the power to actually change my life. And the time is now. I talked it over with Mother, and she actually supports me. I don't know if my dad will or not. I think he would, except for the financial part. I don't really expect him to contribute much. And I'm positive he would never visit. Not even to move me in or out. But that's alright with me if I don't see him for nine months. No, the only thing I'm really worried about is Craig. He nearly had a mental breakdown when I told him how badly I want to go to Guilford. He's worried that I'll never see him or talk to him. I think that in any other situation, with any other boy or at a different time in the relationship, I would just say, forget it, catch you later. But this is different. I really love Craig. And by the time I would go to college next fall, we will have been dating for over a year. At this age, that's getting a bit serious and it's not something I want to throw away. He said he would support me wherever I decide to go, but that he doesn't have to like it. I understand, but at the same time I almost want him to fake it for me. I want to be told that everything will be okay between us. Deep down, I am terrified.
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